The Unknown

I like to live my life via my calendar with some spontaneity, but not to much! The past few days have been filled with spontaneity, as I found out that the North Carolina Baptist State Convention would be “phasing out” its collegiate ministries throughout the state of North Carolina – let that sink in no more collegiate ministry in the state of North Carolina from the Baptist State Convention! Whoa!
While that should be exciting for me, since I work for Cooperative Baptist Fellowship, its not, its actually saddening, because now some students will wonder hopelessly, some will wonder to other ministries, some will not go anywhere, and many will be scared by this decision.I got into what I’m doing because I enjoy taking part in a young persons growth and development – I learn from them and they learn from me! Well now what do we do for those students who need somewhere to grow and learn! Will they land in other groups or will they the leave faith communities to never return!? I have no idea what will happen from this day forward as collegiate ministry across the state takes a new shape, but I do know that we are seriously walking into the unknown! Join me in prayer for those affected by this “phasing out”….


One of my favorite theologians is a man named Dietrich Bonhoeffer who penned a quote I came across recently, which says: “Jesus himself did not try to convert the two thieves on the cross; he waited until one of  them turned to him.” Awkwardly this quote reminded me of a part in the movie Blood Done Sign My Name – if you haven’t seen it, watch it – in the movie Rev. Tyson a new pastor is visiting an elderly woman at her home, she says to him Rev. Tyson are you a priest or a prophet, he says well I think I’m a little bit of both, she says no your either one or the other you can’t be both, a priest comforts us and makes us feel good but a prophet is the one who tells us the things we need to hear no matter who difficult we are living in times in which we need a prophet. I think, I side more so with being a prophet rather than a priest, I have a love for controversy, struggle, tension, fear, and hard lessons that are filled with growth.
 I’m currently at a place in my journey that calls  me to be a prophet which is great, but I’m also at a place in my journey that calls be a priest, so how do I handle both? I keep the words of Bonhoeffer near and dear as I have conservations with college students who are all and different places in their faith journey and some who don’t want to know Jesus. I walk tall, stand firm, whisper sweet nothings, yell I’m here for you, and most of all I follow. No one wants someone scaring the hell out of them, so Jesus can be pushed in – they want something with a higher power that causes them to ask and receive. So, with that said I leave with the words of Bonhoeffer “Jesus himself did not try to convert the two thieves on the cross; he waited until one of  them turned to him.”