“I can’t see ’em comin down my eyes
So I gotta make the song cry
I can’t see ’em comin down my eyes
So I gotta make the song cry…”
Rap artist Jay Z eloquently says the above statement in his song cleverly titled “Song Cry”, well I have to admit I had the same feelings as Jay Z a few years ago, but in a different context, he had a relationship end badly and I was struggling with what to give up for lent, so why not turn on some rap for inspiration!
Lent was fast approaching and I wasn’t sure what I wanted to fast from, I had been praying and really struggling with what it was I needed to let go of during lent, while at the same time I was questioning the tradition of fasting from something I would go back to doing or abusing after Easter. I had to be honesty with myself, I didn’t feel like I was really valuing lent and all of its beauty when I was fasting from specific things and would say a prayer when I was tempted to have the item – there were days I just said forget it and had the item or I didn’t pray – I’m ashamed to admit that! Well, I made a decision that has since ruined me; instead of giving up things for lent I add something, but not just anything, I add something that causes a change within my spiritual life! I have read books, wrote prayers and letters to God, and stopped to pray at a specific time – while these are just a few things that I have done, I hope to do more as I explore the practice of adding rather than denying.
I hope I don’t sound like a typical millennial wanting to change the way things are done, because that was not and is not my intent. My intent is simply to find a way to connect with God on a deeper level as we journey to the cross during the season of lent, the way I connect best is by spending time with my creator – I wanted to ‘see em’ comin down my eyes’!
My plans for lent this year:
– Read through Deitrich Bonhoeffers Meditations on the Cross.
– Write prayers of confession and hope for myself each week.
– Pray for my enemies and genuinely mean my prayers for them.
My prayer is that YOU will experience a special connection with our Creator, God, not just during this Lenten season but one that will last for the next few seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, and years to come.
Blessings to you as we journey through the season of lent!